First and foremost, thank you to all who have read my past blog posts and my book, “Homey’s Adventures.”
As promised, I am continuing the series of all the chapters of my new book, “Homey’s Adventures Too.” I am now 71 and I decided that I did not want to spend my time haggling with editors, literary agents, and publishers. The main thing I am interested in is to write for your pleasure and mine. So, without further delay, here is Chapter 15:
Chapter 15 – Waiting for My Xena
Covid 19 seemed to last forever. I could not go to Xena, and she could not come to me. I could complain about the medical Nazis and portray myself as a victim. I could complain about the endless political bickering. I could complain about our basic human rights being stomped on.
I compared my first book to “Portnoy’s Complaint” by Phillip Roth. I think the biggest difference between the two books is that Portnoy seemed to whine about his circumstances, and I refuse to whine about mine.
By now my reader should know that I am not a victim. I refused to be a victim. So, I will not bore you with my complaints. Instead, I offer to you a quote from my pastor: “Jesus made water into wine, but he didn’t make whining into to anything.”
I am not going to lie to you and tell you that I had no doubts during this agonizing period. I will tell you that I have dedicated the rest of my life to loving others as I do myself. This is the worthiest goal of my life.
I did question my devotion to Xena and Marie. Favoritism is in congruent with God’s character: “God does not show favoritism” (Romans 2:11). All are equal before Him. Ephesians 6:9 says, “There is no favoritism with him.” Colossians 3:25 teaches God’s fairness in judgment: “Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for his wrong, and there is no favoritism.”
So, I asked my pastor: “You have told us many times that God does not want us to favor one person over another. How does this relate to our families? Should we not favor our families over strangers?”
He answered: “Our families deserve a special place in our lives. We are to love and protect our children, our spouses, and honor our fathers and mothers.”
I still do not fully understand these conflicting goals, but there are many things about God’s wisdom that I do not understand. I may never understand. Instead, I continued to pray to be guided by the Holy Spirit.
What I did understand is that my Xena understood me. She agrees with my dedication to loving others as I do myself. I concluded that she is the right woman for me. I resolved to keeping my promise and waiting for her and Marie.
I received a message from a woman claiming to be Xena and suggested that I send my emails to a different email address. Her claim was that I was talking to an interpreter on the website and not her.
Unfortunately for this scammer, this was not the first request of this kind that I had received in the past. I once talked to a woman for a whole month until she asked me to send money to her.
I asked her counterpart on the website: “Have you been emailing me for the last month?”
She responded: “No, we have not talked for a long time.”
“I thought it was you that I was talking to for almost a month.”
“No dear, it wasn’t me.”
I relayed this onto the person I was emailing: “Your counterpart on the website says that she did not ask me for money.”
“You are a fool to listen to her. She is not me. She is just an interpreter.”
“But you are asking me for money, and she is not.”
“I signed a modeling contract with the website, and it runs for another year. I got tired of all the bullshit and left.”
“I’m sorry to hear that. I’m also suspicious of anyone asking me for money online.”
“I need the money to eat. Otherwise, I will starve!”
“Okay, could you send me a selfie of you holding up a paper sign that says: I love Homey and Jim? With this, I will be more confident that it is really you.”
“If you want to spend your money talking to an interpreter, then go right ahead.”
At this point I was sure that I was talking to a scammer for a whole month. I asked the website person for the same picture and did not get it from her either, but she was not asking me for money. I could have reported the incident to the website, but I did not think it was the loving thing to do. So, I stopped talking to both women.
I went through the same steps with the Xena scammer. She gave me the same refusal to send me that picture.
It was Xena’s birthday, and I sent her a gift via the website and a personal note from me. When you give a gift on the website, they publish pictures of the woman holding the gift and any note you send. So, I knew I was emailing my true Xena using the email address the website gave me.
When I told the scammer Xena this, she scoffed: “Haven’t you ever heard of Photoshop!”
“I have and you can prove you are right by sending me the picture that I asked for.”
She or he never sent me the personalized picture. So, I stopped talking to her or him. She or he never asked me for money, but my experience is that it is just a matter of time before that happens. Honest people do not get offended when you ask for verification online. Only the crooks do.
I would like to end this chapter with a love letter that I wrote to my Xena:
There were many different events in my life, but only one event could turn my life upside down and bring a lot of bright colors. As you understand, this event is related to our meeting, which took place now when I least expected it. But now I understand that I will be grateful to this moment for the rest of my life. All my life I also want to dedicate to you and our family, which will surely be the happiest. Believe me, I am ready to share with you not only happy, but also sad moments. Unfortunately, they also happen sometimes, but it will only strengthen our feelings. Dear, I’ve never been so calm before, because only you helped me to cope with all the hardships and to start living a calm and happy life. Thank you for everything.
I just started writing the next chapter of my new book entitled “Waiting for My Xena”. In this new chapter, I will express my feelings about waiting for you and Marie. I can only pray to Jesus to help me through this awful pandemic so that I can deliver on my promise to wait for you.
I am reminded by the fact that I am 36 years older than you. I don’t think that I told you but men in my family have not lived that long. My dad died of cancer when he was 64. Since I am 6 years older than 64, I cannot help but wonder if I am living on borrowed time. Only God knows if I can complete my promise.
I have described how perfect you are for me throughout my new book. I have nicknamed you my Xena for a reason. Xena was a mythical powerful and perfect woman. I know you are not perfect, but you have everything that I have always wanted.
For your information, I have attached the second review of my book. The reviewer describes Jim Wish as a senior Romeo. At first, I reacted to this review as age-based discrimination which in the USA is illegal by a bill passed by the USA congress in 1967. I could prevent this review from being published, but the reviewer classified my book as a recommended read. The last lines of the review are: “While not designed for everyone, fans of this genre might see this entry as a must-read.”
Please let me know what you think darling. I will always value your opinion.
The author Alexander Pope gave us a quote that resonated in my heart during this period in my life: “Hope springs eternal in every human beast.” I pray that the Holy Spirit will love and guide me through these troubling times.
End of Chapter 15
I hope you enjoyed chapter 15. Next week, I will give you “Chapter 16 – To Kill a Mockingbird” My new book has 32 chapters. So, if you want to receive all 32 chapters as soon as the post is created, then become a follower of this blog.
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